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So,Monday, just after I emailed my Todd about needing new glasses because, and I quote, "these are falling apart" the gods heard, chuckled to themselves, and promptly made them fall apart.

On that day, The Stupid was stalking me through the cube and would from time to time leap out from its dark, dank corner and whack me in the head and make me wonder again how my coworkers dress themselves in the morning.

Tuesday, as we made plans to get new glasses, my brother calls me at work. My brother never calls me at work. My brother has only called me at work one other time, and it was to deliver bad news. This day wasn't that different. My sister-in-law's father was put into ICU with oxygen and blood pressure levels so low the doctors were fearing brain damage and pneumonia so bad one lung was causing pain in his neck which made them think meningitis. "We need to get there," he said, "but we don't get paid until Tuesday and we need money." My brother has never asked me for money. This was bad. Without hesitation, my response was, "How much do you need?" Glasses are cool, but mine are glued together and my brother needs the money more.

I went to the bank and pulled out twice the money he asked for because we just did not know what to expect. When he arrived later, he said her father had gone septic. Not good. I gave him the money and went to the car to check on my sister-in-law. She grabbed me so tight and held on and just sobbed. She knew she was going to lose her dad. She was scared and sobbing, and my god I wanted to take it all away. Meanwhile, Todd, on his on volition, was giving my brother a check matching what I had already given him. "Just in case you need it," he said. I love that man. We saw them away with demands of, "Call me when you get there because the weather is going to be abso-freaking-lutely horrible." A few minutes later, my worried mother called while I was trying to stir fry dinner. Even more worry ensued.

But!

Out of the bad, comes the good.

I have been approved for financial aid for school. This had been the catalyst for a few financial decisions. This is good because it meant that I was poised to give my brother more if he needed it. I'm there for my baby bro.

I waited up until nearly wee hours for my brother to call. I eventually called him because I just needed to go to bed, and I wanted him to know that he could call anyway...as always. I got his voicemail. He called back a few minutes later. The driving was horrible, he said. Tornado weather all the way. They maybe drove 35 miles an hour. But, they were there; they were safe; and her father...was coherent and talking.

That was unbelievably fantastic news. The rate he was going when they left, many of us were planning a funeral. He made an amazing turnaround in several hours. We're good with this. Very good with it.

Called Mom afterwards, and related the news until the actual wee hours, and all was well.

Went to bed.

Dreamt something.

Hugged my Todd.

I got up and went to work and hated every exhausted minute of it. My brother called later this afternoon to say that her father was doing so well they were talking about moving him to a regular room.

And, all was relieved in the world.

Today, I bought a lot of wine and ate chocolate. I figured it was allowed.

Now...I'm going to bed.

'Night all. See you tomorrow.

Very behind...

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Just to let ya'll know, I'm kind of behind on the blogs. I've been away from the computer for a while. I will be doing some catching up this weekend.

Can I get a Wahoo!

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The official word came today:

I am officially enrolled in massage therapy school and will be starting on June 25th.



Let's take a moment for the joyous, happy, wiggly puppy dance.

*wiggle wiggle wiggle*



I don't know about financial aid, yet, but at this point, considering we have a back-up plan, I don't care. I'm just happy that for once my future seems to be in my hands and not pigeon-holed by the fact I had to take whatever, whenever, just to keep from living in a cardboard box.

Capitalism. Bah.

But, you know, that's okay, maybe I needed that seven years of being pigeon-holed in administrative work to realize I'm not a cube gerbil. Maybe I needed that time to look in the mirror and ask what it was I really wanted.

I want this.

Very much.

And, although I'm scared to death of change and the possibility of failure, I am willing to risk it for this. Oh, there is a possibility of failure, sure, but, you know, it's worth trying. It's worth finding out. It's worth the bloody risk.

Right at this moment, I am very happy.

And, I appreciate you guys for supporting me. Cheers to you all!


Cute moment: Todd was going off to fighter practice when he asked me if he needed to stick around. The reason being that I wanted to call the school to find out if I was officially accepted or not (it was good news, obviously). I told him I would be fine, but he gave me this worried look and said, "But, what if it's bad news. I couldn't leave you here, knowing you might be weeping without me to weep upon."

I thought that was incredibly lovely of him.

It might have taken him a while to tell me he loved me, but I know how much by the things he does every day.

And, you know I love him because I didn't burn the stir fry.

Even after that remark about needing a fire extinguisher just in case I overheat the peanut oil...

It's definitly love...


Official apologies again for being absent. There has been a lot happening. On top of this wonderful news, there has been bad news. Before the offical recall of Hill's Science Diet MD prescription food for diabetics, we apparently got ahold of a tainted bag of food. Hill's offered to pay for testing to see if any kidneys of cats on MD were affected by tainted food. Unfortunately, my four-legged children have been tested and show signs of kidney problems. The test results are exactly what the vets were told to expect if they had ingested tainted food, according to my vet.

I was not a happy person yesterday.

I wasn't all that happy today, honestly.

We don't quite know what's going to happen next. We're going to check out our options and see what we can do. Wish us luck on this one.

Wow. I really needed the good news about school. I'm really glad it came.
Sorry I've been absent. I'm so worried about this massage therapy school thing that I'm ditzy. I really want to do it, and I hope it's the right thing. There are people who tell me I should "really think about it" because they know people who are "unhappy" with it. Well, duh. How many people aren't unhappy with their jobs? It's all about being the small percentage who find their niche and are happy with what they do because they...ahem...find their niche. Stupid and repetative, I know, but it's true.

The problem is all these people telling me massage therapy is a bad idea are starting to get to me. They shouldn't. They really shoudn't. I mean, it's like the guy who talked to me today about how he has a friend who is a massage therapist who isn't happy because of where she works because she feels rushed with her clients: well, if your friend isn't smart enough to figure out maybe she needs to branch out into her own practice or move to another spa after a few years, then maybe it's her own fault. Then, of course, there are those who say, well, there are more massage therapists now, so you might not succeed based on numbers. *sigh* It's disheartening to hear all this negativity all the time.

Todd says people do that because they feel they're doing you a favor and saving you so pain. Funny that considering the owner of the massage therapy school I want to attend said they have a job placement program and do not have a problem finding people jobs...

Sounds like a growing business to me while I keep coming in contact with a whole lot of people who have no idea because they are taking the word of one or two people...

I have to say to all the nay-sayers: I have to try, dammit. I've been thinking and planning this for several years. If I try and fail, then that's my problem. Just be happy for me for trying, huh? At least I tried. I'm tired of being pigeon-holed and treated like cube-gerbil scum. I've got to at least try.

I know the rest of you guys support me, and I'm happy for that, but to those who think I should reconsider because I "might" fail....

PPPPppppppppppppppppfffffffffffffffffffffffftt!


So there!

Nyah!

Really! Still here!

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Well, Mimi, to answer your comment, I don't know that I'm doing great things, but I'm out doing things.

I went and toured the massage therapy school today and talked to the owner.

Ya'll...

I am SO going to that school! I don't care what it takes, but I am going to do what I can to get there. I am so excited about it I can't stand myself! For the first time in I don't know when, I feel a very real connection with what I'm supposed to be doing with my life.

Seriously. I've been bouncing around and grinning like an idiot all day. I am very excited and feel like a serious amount of weight has been lifted simply because now there's a very real future before me that could be very bright indeed. I'm very happy right now.

Yeah, the side effect is that for six months I might be pretty much non-existent in many aspects of my life, but as my mother says, I can do anything for six months, especially something that will lead to a new career that I will most likely love. It's scary and nerve wrecking, but it's worth it in the end.

Now, the only worries are a) will they accept me, b) will I be able to pay for it, and c) what to do with my job. I should know the answers to at least a & b in a couple of weeks. As for c...well...that's going to take some thinking. The owner of the school told me they do job placement and have not had any problem placing people in jobs. If that's true and there's a very real possibility that I could go from school straight to a full time massage therapy position, then hell, I could deal with the idiocy of my current job for a little while longer. I'll at least get my next bonus. If it works out, it means that I won't have to CARE what happens at this job so much. Suddenly, my stress might not be that bad. Heh.

Other than that, I've been recovering from vacation, stressing at work, and trying to do something with this house. I'm hoping to spend some time this weekend doing some catching up on the blog and maybe some other things. We've suddenly gotten some really cold weather, probably the last of the season, so I want a fire in the fireplace. That'll be nice and relaxing.

(I realized this evening one of the reasons I love the cold so much. At night, when you stand outside, it's just still. It's calm, with maybe the wind whispering to you. There's not a lot of noisy conversation from frogs and crickets and such, just quiet. I love that. I will miss it until next winter.)

So, yeah, I've been a bit absent already, but I swear it's been productive nonetheless if not productive here. Ya'll don't give up on me!

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